Shattered hope? HOPE NOT!!

Just when I thought I've everything planned out for my 2 months confinement, I got a call from my maid who's having her holiday back home to say that she's diagnose with uterus cancer. My mind went blanked. This means she might not be coming back. I'm left with 8 weeks to deliver the baby. Seriously, I'm worried, no matter how much I tell myself that everything will be alright without her. I really got to write down what are the things that I'd need and needed to do before and after the baby arrives. I regretted canceling my booking with my friend's confinement lady earlier and wasted RM300 for booking fee. I really didn't expect this would happen. I thought this round I'd be able to rest my backbones well. I hated running up and down the stairs when I had ZY last time. All the walking really hurt my back and my wound a lot and having a dreadful time bending over to change ZY's nappy every 1-2 hours when she pee or poop in the middle of the night. After her big & small business, I'd to breastfeed her for another 30 to 45 minutes; followed by pumping out the extra milk to increase my milk production. I think what I'll do is to put all the necessary equipment for washing the baby breast pump in my room so I wouldn't have to run downstairs for cleaning. At least, I'll just need to run downstairs to do laundry and eat my food. If I'm staying in a condo, I wouldn't be so worry because I wouldn't need to walk so far to the kitchen and to the laundry area. My worst fear is that my mom will be over exhausted. Mom will have to cook and bath the baby for me during the confinement period. Even if I get a confinement lady, what happens after 1 month or when I've to go to work after 2 months? Mom will have to handle the baby all by herself. I'll be at work. When I come home, I'll be busy breast-feeding the baby, cleaning my breast pump, doing laundry and giving attention to ZY. Then I might also have to wake up several times to nurse the baby at night. I told ZY just now that kakak (the maid) called up and said she's sick. Do you think she'll come back here? She said no. So I said then who's going to help mommy to take care of baby? She said “me”. My heart melted.